That smile...that confidence...that joy...that person...THAT DAY! As I think back to this day and how much fun I had, I also can't help to think back to a time when there was no way on this earth that I could have ever done this...
For starters the situation I was in; my self-esteem shot, my insecurities at an all time high, I would have never felt comfortable enough to even stand in front of a camera as such. Even on this day, I struggled with my confidence, but the man behind the camera was great, very patient and encouraging. Secondly, during that unhealthy period of my life, there was nothing for me to really smile about, no joy in my life. Of course I had my kids and they could always put a smile on my face or make me happy, but that was only temporary. Lastly, that person...the woman you see there in that picture, she is a long, long, long way away from the woman she was 3 plus years ago. That woman in the picture decided one day to start loving herself, respecting herself, wanting better for herself and her children...
Now here I am...I AM A SURVIVOR...a survivor of domestic violence. For almost 9 years, I endured every type of abuse you could think of...BUT GOD! Thankfully my story did not end tragically. Some of the women and men that are in these situations, they only made it out because they have been killed by their abuser or are in jail for killing their abuser. I am BLESSED to still be here, therefore, I feel it is God's calling on my life to help others that are where I used to be. I do not share my story for pity, I do not share my story to bring shame or malice towards my abusers...I share my story because I want desperately for others to know that they can get out too. Even more than helping those in it now, I pray my story helps others recognize the dangers and red flags and they can steer clear of abusive individuals and relationships altogether.
On that note...it is October 1! October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. If you are in an abusive relationship, learn about the many resources you have available to help you get out if you are ready. Maybe you just need someone to talk to, please reach out to me. If you are a survivor as myself, be brave and share your story...you never know who it may help. If none of the above apply to you, you can still take the time to educate yourself on some of the facts, warning signs, and red flags or provide support to an organization that supports the cause. Abused, survivor, or other...no matter your position, there is something you can do to help put a stop to the issue...an issue that leaves behind so many scars.
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